My creative journey has always been a little bit of a struggle for me, as I have been trying to define the reason for me becoming an artist, or trying to make a living as one.
I don’t think that we always get to choose our career, we might be drawn to it, or it chooses us, but when it really comes down to it, I don’t think I would want to do anything else. At the same time I can easily get stuck in some sort of minimalistic thinking or a point of view.
The answers for my struggles are not always easily found, even though I try to find them by loosing myself in what I like to do best, and that is, to create more. Does that mean I am escaping or living more?
But lately, I have been immersing myself in the book by Mark Nepo, The One Life We’re Given, and his words resonate with me so much, that I wanted to share with you this short excerpt from his book –
“The challenge as we strive is not to attach our identity to what we are striving for, but to give our all with faith in how such complete giving of who we are – through what we do – will reveal our deeper nature. Just as a blossom can’t be seen until its flower fully opens, our true identity forms out of our deeper nature, once we are exhausted of our plans.
What we accomplish and create matters. But we are not defined by what we create. We are defined by how the engagement of our being shapes and creates us. When we can honor this mystical fact, then we will continue to grow, regardless what happens to what we create. While what we do might be praised or criticized, our worth continues to form within, independent of how what we do is received. Our aim is not to strive at all cost or to be at all cost. Being human, our journey is to strive in order to be.”
I would also like to invite you to my new online workshop – a mini class of sorts again – Soulful portraits 2. I like to do these mini classes, because I think it gives students a better chance to focus on one thing, as suppose to one big class that might not get to finish. I will be sharing with you few new techniques, one of them is using stencils to start what you would like to paint (flowers, butterflies and o on) and then filling them in with color. There will be about 8 videos in total and most of them fully narrated and not sped up. There will also be a bonus lesson on how I painted this journal page – Girl with a Crow on her Shoulder, but I might call her – We Cast Shadows.